Letters To You

I can't sleeep :(

If only I can pray, the night of lailatul
Qadar, i have already did. To ease all my feelings.

I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I just lose the feel. Yes. I just hope O can realize it earlier. Why is this feeling come and go? If people truly care, they will.....

Arrgghhh ya Allah, help me ;(

XoXo from princess
@ 2:15 AM

Yesterday nigt was Nisfu Syabaam. Alhamdulilah, like previous year, I managed to recite Yasiin. But time round, it is so special because I'm doing it with AzharFitri and his family. Something that I didn't expect to happen. Alhamdulilah. Thank you Allah for blessing me with people around me that remind me of you.

I can't wait for the day you will be mine. All mine dengan sah. I can't wait the day where we can stay together. Stick together. Where's there is you, there is always me. Like our parents. I wanna grow old with you. I want to be there feeding you when you sick like how ibu always do to abah.

I don't know why I'm saying all this. But each time I saw you doing your prayer like yesterday, like how you did your prayer with abah at my house, I feel excited. I want do my prayer together with you where you will be leading me. You the imam and I'm the makmum. I want us to go far all the way together. I want to make this relationship last. I don't want anyone else except you. No matter how big our fights get, I just want you to be the one. InsyaAllah.

Be with me till the last of my breath will you?

XoXo from princess
@ 1:07 PM

getting close to each other is always the sweetest. It's sad how things change so quickly. I'm sorry if you just realized that I'm not someone up to your standard. Someone that you are looking for. I'm sorry if things don't go on your way. I'm sorry. I'm not perfect :(

XoXo from princess
@ 12:02 AM

Hello! It been so long since I last update. hehehe. Life have been much fine, Alhamdulilah :)
Just been so cranky this few days and guess what, bloodymary is here today. No wonder the symptoms of PMS been here this few days. Been craving for lotsa foods, been scolding the love ones, been moody, pimples here and there and been crying alot this few days. hahahaha.

Will be working fullshift tomorrow at both workplace. and guess what, baby is working the same workplace with me! YES AT SINGAPORE FLYER AND OBVIOUSLY LAH I'M THE HAPPIEST GIRL HEHEHEHE. i can't wait to meet him tomorrow. It been so long since we last have a proper meet up. So long. Tomorrow also working belum tentu dapat same section all. hais. I miss you lah baby. rindu lah :(

Oklah. a short post for now. I'm tired. Should watch online movie while waiting for the boy and off to sleep. assalamuailaikum :)

XoXo from princess
@ 11:37 PM

"ni yang i tak suke call you, asal call gaduh."

Yeah. This is what I get for having constant days of happiness.

You never knew how delighted I am when you called but to end everything with that kind of sentence is seriously not needed.

Fine, from now onwards, no phonecall are needed. Only just wakeup call. I don't want to expect anything much from you too. Let's go with the flow okay. I'm fine without any phonecall from you. I have already adapt with it for the past 2 months.

Call bukan selalu tapi this is what I get.

I guess nothing more sweet? First few months is always sweet. Maybe like what others said honeymoon period ending. Things changed. Envy those boyfriend that talk about their girlfriend everywhere, anywhere. Be it over the net or what. It's not comparing but somehow I wish you knew that I need you to show how much care and love you had for me.

Why can't I be like you? Take every single things lightly. Why do I have to care so much? ;(

XoXo from princess
@ 9:20 AM

I don't know that value of friendship seem to be decreasing as days past by. I didn't know that a friend that you know years back can be the one talking behind your back. A friend that you treat as your blood. All this while don't I care enough? I thought no matter how far we are, we are still as one? No I'm not accusing neither blaming you, but as a grown up, you should understand that. You know what you have done. You causes others to think bad about us. No matter how my friends dislike you, never did I say anything bad about you. I protected you, took care of your name all. But it's allright baby. I still value every of my friendship. It's just that you should realize how hurt it is when the one you love and trust did all this towards you.

Ohhhh! So yesterday was a happy day for me! Boyfriend lied to me about his TP but eventually he passed! Ya Allah, I'm so happy for him. I was so stress up when he told me he failed his TP. I'm scared I can't comfort him all :( I search the whole watsons and guardian at Rivervale Mall to find him a cute chocolates but it is nowhere to be found. So brought for him double fillet meal with nuggets since that was what he wanted. Thanks durrah for accompanying me. hehe.

When I meet him, he show me the results paper. hahahhaa I told him " b i taktau bace lah results paper ginie, tak paham." So I flip and flip till the last page and I saw 18 POINTS without realizing it's stated PASSED beside it. He once told me passing mark is 18 points. So when I was about to asked him, I saw the word PASSED. I WAS SO SHOCKED THAT I SHOUT, PINCH HIM AND ALL. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA! I'm like a crazy girl shouting like nobody business. hahaha. the feelings of shocked, happy, relief, angry all mixed feelings lah! hehehehhee. But I'm so proud of my boy. He did it. Alhamdulilah! So slacked at the rooftop, slacked at his place. He was so crazy. Happy to see my boy like that. Like finally no stress, no tired for all this. It's all over! You made it baby!

You know I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AZHAR FITRI! (:

XoXo from princess
@ 11:10 AM

It's his big day tomorrow. :')
Much excited and nervous for him. I was there to watch him go through his RTT, FTT and all his prac(s). Was there to see him work hard for these. How hard he work just for all these. Really hope that everything gonna be fine for him. Hope every effort will be paid off.

Baby, I really hope the outcome will be positive. I believe you can do it. InsyaAllah! I have the confident in you. However, if things don't go the way we want, I hope you are strong. Allah knows the best for you baby. Believe in him. but don't think too much. Just look at the bright side. Let's pray hard. I know my baby can do this and get done with it. InsyaAllah. Help him Ya Allah. :')

i love you baby. see you later.

XoXo from princess
@ 12:53 AM